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“A man who has committed a mistake and doesn’t correct it, is committing another mistake.”

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So ask all your questions, try all their answers.
And change as we may, whatever should follow,
I love you.
I had you here.. had you.


I’ve had enough and I’m ready to forget the reasons keeping me here.


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"Everything counts a little more than we think..."

19 November 2002 Tuesday

x.dream: ma-ma in malaysia

slated in dreams at 4:03 pm

dream must’ve been in malaysia… was at grandparents old house only it was a different house… based on the old estate grandfather owns… much more elaborate… aunty cheng and ee-ee were clearly there… something about a lot of bathrooms/washroom areas… grandmother was in a tub that was more or less a basin which is more or less normal for malaysian bathing… except that normally you don’t actually sit in it…  grandmother, ma-ma, (passed away just a few weeks ago) was checking the bottom of one of her feet for something… she was paying much attention to that…. ended up outside… something about selling the whole property… as one piece… not dividing it after having given much consideration (grandfather, kong-kong) but the property being so huge… and i considering that it would be so useful if it were back in the u.s…. though even in malaysia, the land could be worth so many things… but such a large piece… and something about oil pipes on the border of the property.. and moving bricks and dirt to look for ‘overlaid pipes’ or something about that… some other people… i dunno.  this morning taking lor to school… kit wa mai sabai… yuen kuen: see daam.. mai dee.

who saw the meteor shower? http://www.weather.com/newscenter/topstories/021118meteorshower.html

x.revealed in dark to overwhelm...

slated in prose/poetry, moments at 4:21 am

revealed in dark to overwhelm and drag beyond the quiet realm / absorbed in light of rippled thought within a world that magic sought / essential reason, patience to a truth that is not always true / a peace that is not always calm, entrapped within a fickle palm / a love that grows within a calm encouraged by a gentle palm / and painting ground where risings fall with glittered dreams, slighting strife, we’ll make our ways and triumph all, sipping smiles from sugared life.


x.hammock photo

slated in scenery, moments at 2:25 am
Ali and Lor in hammock at Lake George This is my desktop background for the past few weeks.. one of my favoritest pictures with one of my favoritest people. i wanted to put up a happy thought right now. there’s a meteor shower tonight. falling stars… shooting stars… ‘pieces of dust’... perfect trust.

18 November 2002 Monday

x.belief system selector

slated in stuff at 7:54 pm
According to the SelectSmart.com Belief System Selector, my #1 belief matches are Neo-Pagan and Universal Unitarianism.
What do you believe?

Visit SelectSmart.com/RELIGION
My Results 1st Time Around:

1.  Neo-Pagan (100%)
2.  New Age (95%)
3.  Unitarian Universalism (95%)
4.  New Thought (75%)
5.  Mahayana Buddhism (74%)
6.  Liberal Quakers (69%)
7.  Theravada Buddhism (60%)
8.  Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (60%)
9.  Scientology (58%)
10.  Hinduism (56%)
11.  Secular Humanism (56%)
12.  Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (39%)
13.  Nontheist (37%)
14.  Reform Judaism (37%)
15.  Taoism (37%)
16.  Jainism (29%)
17.  Sikhism (21%)
18.  Orthodox Judaism (17%)
19.  Bah�'� Faith (12%)
20.  Orthodox Quaker (12%)
21.  Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (4%)
22.  Eastern Orthodox (4%)
23.  Islam (4%)
24.  Jehovah's Witness (4%)
25.  Roman Catholic (4%)
26.  Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (3%)
27.  Seventh Day Adventist (2%)
My Results 2nd Time Around:

1.  Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2.  Theravada Buddhism (97%)
3.  Mahayana Buddhism (94%)
4.  New Age (86%)
5.  Liberal Quakers (82%)
6.  Hinduism (80%)
7.  New Thought (80%)
8.  Neo-Pagan (78%)
9.  Taoism (69%)
10.  Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (65%)
11.  Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (64%)
12.  CScientology (64%)
13.  Jainism (62%)
14.  Sikhism (56%)
15.  Secular Humanism (50%)
16.  Nontheist (43%)
17.  Orthodox Quaker (43%)
18.  Reform Judaism (42%)
19.  Bah�'� Faith (37%)
20.  Orthodox Judaism (31%)
21.  Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (27%)
22.  Islam (25%)
23.  Seventh Day Adventist (25%)
24.  Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (21%)
25.  Eastern Orthodox (14%)
26.  Jehovah's Witness (14%)
27.  Roman Catholic (14%)


slated in stuff at 7:11 pm

i’m not sure at all how i got here… http://www.xanga.com/BobsLeftNut ..but uh… err?

x.dream: konstantine

slated in dreams at 4:47 pm

unusual, in-depth dream..  something about a school… a place… a guy… a girl… there were lots of other people too..and at least one other significant girl, i think… but it comes down to them….. the girl being as or more attractive and a bit more edgy than lana lane in smallville (i know. wow. wink face), and the guy being alright but a lil soft in character… and… and something to do with being at a sports event… and walking around the back of the bleachers or soemthing… this was all nighttime, i’m pretty sure.. and something with going for a walk… something to do with a carnival or something..or a club… and then communicating online and trying to ditch the guy decently after interfering with the girl who for some reason has interest in this guy who clearly did really have interest in her before… and by trying to ditch the guy, talking to friends online while he’s there… and when he looked away, typing something like “he’s here.. come save me…” and closing the window really fast.. but that wasn’t it… it was typoed and the typo made sense verbally, so had to retype and send again quick before he came back.” and mild other thinkings around this plot that i don’t specifically recall but remember them being. ...and as waking up (was awake but not done waking) had the line playing over in my head “this is to a girl who got into my head with all the pretty things she did.. you know.. you keep me up in bed.. this is to a girl who got into my head with all the fucked up things i did ..maybe ..maybe you could keep me up in bed” (konstantine)... what exactly specifically does that verse mean anyway?  the day got sunny. this morning was not pretty. now it is. i approve.  whoever placed the order on the day, right now is looking good; well done.  and i happen to know that there are some absurdly perfect brownies downstairs… breakfast time. wink face

slated in moments at 9:54 am

hi. it’s windy out. giant opens at 7, safeway at 6. and back to bed i go.

17 November 2002 Sunday

x.i'm a martini

slated in stuff at 7:19 pm

eh. we all know working is overrated anyway.

You’re a MARTINI!
Rich, and refined you’re smooth and saucy.
You’re the butter on the bread, the lube on the hinge, the teflon on the pan.

...okay.. i’m a Martini…
what’s your ALcoHoLiC personality!

x.'kiss the girl' is such a good song

slated in moments at 5:50 pm

i’m eating lil squares of finite joy. :-) pleased about it, i am.  and productiveness, here i come…

...or singing disney’s ariel the little mermaid’s kiss the girl song with tread… it is rather happiness…  ...damn you! i have work to do!  singing and typing disney songs is not on the agenda! ::happily singing anyway::

x.evil link; upbeat self-portrayal

slated in stuff, mused at 4:28 pm

my “friend” sent me this yesterday:  i…  it hurt my tummy. nothing does that… except food on the inside… and maybe if things are thrown at it with some velocity..  this site hurt my tummy.  :-(  check it out if you dare.  it occurs to me that my xanga site seems quite happy.  i’ve always wondered how to feel about… about coming across all upbeat and happy and stuff…. i guess it’s good… it just doesn’t feel so… me.  i’m not a downbeat person by nature…. but i dunno about the portrayal of constant fun-moodedness and such… and i’m annoyed that i’m trying to explain this even to begin with, since my whole point is pretty much that friends will recognize me as not really the happy zany person by character… tho there’s zanyness in plenty at times, i concede…  pffft to all this.  i’m going to go search for some chocolate chip cookies or something reasonable, rather than try to explain nonsenseness with ehness.

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