13 January 2004 Tuesday

Playlist 01/2004

O-Town – From The Damage
Frou Frou – Hear Me Out
Celine Dion – If You Ask Me To
Ginny Owens – If You Want Me To
Kelly Clarkson – The Trouble With Love Is
Sugababes – Too Lost In You
Massive Attack – Teardrop

12 January 2004 Monday

i lied. i’m updating. okay, so where are we…. a whole new year all over again. january 12..monday…

went into d.c. today to interview with gratis internet where eddie works.. was a pleasant interview.. i felt a bit off, but that’s okay… i thought i was going to be super late, but a change of route got me there on time. i also expected to be really cold on the walk over from the metro stop (i’m not the biggest fan of being cold.. and i’ve not had to contend too much with the outdoors lately) but as it turned out, especially on the after-walk to dupont cir., i wanted to take my jacket off. i had planned for a lunch date, but it then turned out that my dad was heading home earlier than usual, so i had time for barely a hug before catching the metro home with my dad.

lots of last-minute changing plans all along the way… fair enough.. as long as always prepared for things to turn out a bit differently, whether to get you to the same place you intended to go or to someplace new entirely… be ready to work with the change and the change will work out for goodness, rather than frustration and stress.

the people working on the outside steps thing have been here til morning… i wonder what’s for dinner.

chinese new year is in..the weekend after this…

i am currently in the midst of finishing up all my antioch stuff, so i can be considered by the rest of the world to be done with school and ready for everything else. papers and papers and self-evaluations and missing time doing the one thing i really want to be doing..

i also sukoshi updated the aim profile site thing.. that one’s prolly more fun by this one by a long shot, but i kinda like this xanganess too. kind of pulls me on where to write my thoughts tho… on the ‘thoughts’ section of the aim site, or on this xanga site? <strong>shrug</strong>

before writing this entry, i spent some moments considering this morning whether i would rather invest my time in creating my own blog site, hosted by my own space and name and via my own engine or something more personal… i guess i’ve more or less decided that all of that is simply not necessary.. and certainly not today. i’ll get back to my web projects sooner or later..

ultimately, everything will happen as it should. kind of. sometimes. maybe i take that back. ultimately, everything happens. yes. more or less. i’ll let that go as that. risky business, making (de)finite statements.

i’ve work to do.

i feel like i’m neglecting this site when i update on xanga. but i like xanga. they’re kind of the same thing.. only.. not really connected yet at all. and i should be working so i shouldn’t be talking. i should, however, be eating..—partly cuz i’ve not yet eaten today. partly cuz..this is why people get chunky. cuz we have work to do and it’s much more fun to eat instead.

c.updated a bit

updated this baby a bit, and even added a skosh to xanga.. i feel accomplished. :) sukoshi. dunno if i’ll keep at this… maybe… at least now it’s more or less out of the way and there’s one less excuse to avoid graduating. humph.

26 December 2003 Friday

c.so much time for the spending.

so much time for the spending. but that which i would spend more than i have, i would spend on what i have not here. all that i would do and must do and otherwise might or certainly will besides, those are all elsewhere. and still i’ve this beautiful time and space. and i am undesirous to spend it where i would not choose, though all where i would, is not where i am, to have, till i am back where/when there is not the space, nor time, for anything i would or not do, at all.

in consciousness i find forgotten intention. at the edges and ends of unconscience i find belayed response. for reflection or retort, anticipating resorted affliction, or settling seemingly to soft silence, til stirred. a remarkably straight horizon with perpetually false edge. where response may be but no end will lay, save for each dawn and dusk of new day. and the glints and peaks and varied intercourses of trespassers will leave no stay til too many years.

c.intent vs. action. again.

intent vs. action. again.

07 November 2003 Friday

c.i miss my saturn

i miss my saturn

13 October 2003 Monday

mt doesn't have integrated polling?

well these are the two current layouts… very minor differences between them… i’ll eat breakfast on it or something… come back and go with one or the other.

layout a

layout b

~2003-10-13 09:54:47

and it seems the above links will not open in internet explorer, for reasons unknown. they work flawlessly in opera. i got them straight from a previous site i built, and in that one it works flawlessly in explorer. i haven’t had breakfast yet. and i never went back to bed.

so here’s the reluctant version of those links:

layout a

layout b

bit by bit

considerable progress, i think.. it’s taken tons more time than it might look, but the good news definitely is that i’m learning every bit of the way. it’s goodness :) now… back to bed.. or to breakfast?