“better to be inside affecting conversation and process, then[sic.] outside looking in”

There was pain, sunny days, and rain.; I knew you’d feel the same things…

so tonight, when i left here, all i said was “goodbye” and thats alright. no “i’ll see you later”. i’ve been trying my whole life.
And if its an eye for an eye, why cant i get this right? i’m too slow to go fast, i’m too nervous to do that. so i run, run away.. why should i….