The Last Five Years - If I Didn't Believe In You

If I didn’t believe in you
we’d never have gotten this far
if I didn’t believe in you
and all of the ten thousand women you are
If I didn’t think you could do
anything you ever wanted to
if I wasn’t certain that you’d come through somehow
The fact of the matter is, Cathy,
I wouldn’t be standing here now.

If I didn’t believe in you
we wouldn’t be having this fight
If I didn’t believe in you
I’d walk out the door and say, Cathy, you’re right!
But I never could let that go
knowing the things about you I know
— things, when I met you four years ago, I knew.
It never took much convincing
to make me believe in you.

Don’t we get to be happy, Cathy?
At some point down the line don’t we get to relax
without some new tsuris to push me yet further from you?

If I’m cheering on your side, Cathy,
why can’t you support mine? Why do I have to feel
I’ve committed some felony, doing what I always swore I would do.

I don’t want you to hurt
I don’t want you to sink
but you know what I think?
I think you’ll be fine
Just hang on and you’ll see
But don’t make me wait til you do to be happy with you
will you listen to me!?
No one can give you courage,
no one can thicken your skin
I will not fail so you can be comfortable, Cathy
I will not lose because you can’t win.

If I didn’t believe in you,
then here’s where the travelogue ends.
If I didn’t believe in you
I couldn’t have stood before all of our friends
and said This, this is the life I choose;
this is the part I can’t bear to lose;
trip us or trap us but we refuse to fall.
That’s what I thought we agreed on, Cathy.
If I didn’t believe in you, I couldn’t have loved you at all.