01 January 2013 Tuesday

2013; 2012

I had intentions for a decent introspective post reflecting upon this past year and some feelings about the year+ to come.. I have a few hundred thoughts of things I could write right now, and things I could not write right now, and just a general feeling of contentment at knowing and feeling even if I am the only one in the universe who can my combination. sic.

2012 was a good year, for many reasons. 2013 will be a better year, for many reasons, most of which are not promised but nonetheless. There was a lot of not good in 2012, too, and for those things… “in every memory, love lives on…”
I’m looking at a very old painting of my great grandparents’ house; thoughts and feelings;
I was asked recently why ancestry/family trees should matter to me/anyone, and it’s not something I’ve analyzed before, but thinking it through was an interesting exercise. I love my family. I don’t always like all of them all the time, but I love them very much, always, and most of the time I love who they are too and I am very proud of most of each of them, my cousins and uncles and aunts and my grandparents (I no longer have any living) and their parents and extended family (some no longer living) and I am so grateful for the ones I have and the ones I had…
and something, probably the most important thing I learned in 2011 and 2012 that I took for granted is the importance of health;
of course health is important, we all say we know that, but it’s amazing how thoroughly we take health for granted. Health does more than just allow us to walk and talk and think and go about our day, it also completely impacts how we feel and behave, how we look out at the world. Health makes all the difference.
2012 was the year of the water dragon, year of health
2013 shall be year of the snake, bakers dozen, bounty, joy.

I am deeply grateful for the people I love, and for the love in my life; I don’t really do new year resolutions, but I think my intention for 2013 is to live up better to the love I have, to remember myself better in some ways, and to forget myself more easily in others. Maybe I’ll also finally teach myself how to correctly hold a pen, to say “you’re welcome”, and to properly make popcorn. There’s plenty enough to do this year anyway if I don’t fit those in; 2014 is just around the corner.