Making ammends requires much more than saying I’m sorry. It means learning to change. You need to earn your forgiveness.

“there’s a wall in your heart that no one can get through. and it’s cold and it’s dark and you don’t have a clue. but this wall, it will fall, if it’s the last thing i do. i’ll get through this wall in your heart.”

So ask all your questions, try all their answers.
And change as we may, whatever should follow,
I love you.
I had you here.. had you.