06 March 2007 Tuesday

https://ferrydust.com/journal/1633/love-3-6-2007

I don’t feel much like being productive today, but I have been/am. I’m getting my work done despite myself, playing with six different highlighter colors on pages before they hit the computer.. Josh Ritter’s been playing in my headphones past few hours.. it’s almost been a fun morning.

The strength to change what I can, the courage to accept what I can’t, and the wisdom to know the difference.
I have.

Fool all people some of the time, fool some people all of the time; don’t be a fool all of the time.
Fine.

I can kick myself over a lot of things, hold myself down in apology and regret.. but that seems ultimately disrespectful to the things that really deserve feeling sorry over.
and I know me. and that’s not the end all, but it is, ultimately, the firmest foundation.

Life is what we make of it. We can’t take it with us when we go. So what’s worth living? what’s worth doing? what’s worth being? what’s worth keeping?

Ourselves, and others. Our love, and other’s.

We decide. we choose what. we choose who. we choose who we surround ourselves with, we choose who to be, who to become.
We don’t choose where we start. We choose where we go, where we end up, and who we share that journey and destination with.

There’s enough badness and stupidness and confusion and blackness in the world already.

Someday we’ll understand the distinctions between bodies and lives and souls and God and friends and family and love.

The things I can’t explain, justify, define,
I can meanwhile know, which is more important than belief and proof anyway.

Lies and liars.
Confusion and harm.

a Liar with nothing to lie about. gun without bullets.
it’s a start.
intention is not so weak. people are not so weak.

Something to believe in, follow, pursue, trust, defend, be.

I will always believe in love.

back to work.