19 June 2007 Tuesday
in the mrning
My dream this morning…
House: Universe always settles the score
Cuddhy: Does it?
House: No. But it should.
If I didn’t believe in you, I couldn’t have stood before all of our friends and said This, this is the life I choose; this is the part I can’t bear to lose; trip us or trap us but we refuse to fall.
...I don’t know you and I don’t want to
til the moment your eyes open and you know
Excuse me, are you lost? Perhaps you would care to visit the site map
lots of dreaming, but the part I remember/focused on remembering were my cousins.. ‘little’ ones… except there were four instead of three.. three were awake.. the most temperamental one got up later and he wasn’t temperamental.. was showing a friend around the house, and introducing to my cousins.. the house was cool..different from the real one (come to think of it, mixed with other family’s house). wanted to show cousins to other friends too. they may have stopped by later..
This is very much a non-story:
Lots of dreaming, story format, some fantastical pieces but largely realistic and true-lifelike.
I don’t remember them — I rolled over and started thinking too soon.
secret passage in a mall.. mother’s friends..
vampires.. giant diamond.. old “friends”..violent bloodshed.. bus driver…
tons of dreams…
poignant…
strong tea..
a new friend’s place… showered there..
old “friends”.. news.. surprising..
tons of dreams.
relationships… friendships.. family.. my cousins.. most all my cousins.. new baby cousins?..tiny..
relationships;friendships;family;cousins, and myriad of dynamics thereof.
Dream involved some sort of class and group assignment…
School/class-related dreams disconcert me a bit, actually… this one wasn’t like the others, but I have had dreams about life in academia where I think I’m back in school and have been neglecting one/some of my classes and all of a sudden all this work is due or I haven’t been attending any of my Tues and Thurs classes or I haven’t turned in any math homework since the beginning of the semester. Those are not comfortable, and while I don’t panic in the dream and seem willing to figure it out somehow, I am ever so glad to wake up and reason out after a few minutes that all of it was not real.
Okay, but while last night’s(/this morning’s) dream had to do with class/assignment, it wasn’t really like the others…
[…] kittens. and.. um.. I’ve forgotten the other thing.
I think three pairs of cat parents.. some of the kittens were funny/pudgy-faced looking.. but still fun to play with once their parents get less defensive.
Everything is context.
Receiving multiple phone calls at 5am is actually not necessarily a problem..
It’s who is calling at 5am and why.
I had a short nightmare last night/earlyearly morning. I haven’t had a nightmare/like that in a long long time..
I was struggling to call out to be woken up.. I was stuck in the dream.. exactly where I was in real life but I knew I was still sleeping and I knew my voice wasn’t coming through and I wasn’t being heard.. Every now and then I would laspe/fall back asleep within the dream, and then back to restruggling and fighting harder some more, realizing that I hadn’t yet managed to wake myself up.