So, my darling little notebook computer decided it was absolutely not enough that its spine was broken. Knowing that i don’t have time to be letting it sit in a repair center for days, being in the midst of moving, and having pressing websites that are due for launch within two weeks, my sweet, adorable computer decided yesterday to present me with a black screen of death:
<WINDOWS ROOT>\system32\hal.dll is corrupt or missing. Please reinstall.
Or something or other. I am very displeased. first thing Monday morning, it goes to the surgeon. I do not have time for this.
On a side note, today’s moon is bright and happily humungous.
i give up. i like bbclone very very much. and i like textdrive also. i’m not sure who’s fault it is more, but it’s been more than three times now that some sort of skip has occurred and i lose my stats. i’ve been able to recover some of the older data sometimes, but invariably lose at least a week’s worth of visitor statistics. it’s happened to Ferrydust and it’s happened to Textpattern Resources, the latter being the more serious of the two problems. They’re on different servers, so it’s never been at the same time.
now, i’ve been away from my computer/the web quite a bit in recent weeks. so i haven’t been checking stats. i took a few seconds just now to check, and that has volumed up into several minutes in which i am writing this post:
this time it’s happened to both sites.. but seemingly different problems.
for Ferrydust, it’s showing no stats until the evening of September 21st. 0. everything prior appears wiped out. yay.
for Textpattern Resources, it’s showing nothing after the 13th of September. 0. nothing’s ever happened/happening after September the 13th. yippee.
side note: another site on the same server as Ferrydust, btw, did not have any skips with its bbclone stats. could be because it’s a much quieter site with at least a fifth the amount of traffic.
i really like bbclone. yes, there’s mint, but i’m rather happily comfortable with my basic bbclone graphs, and more than that, $30 for every site will add up to a bit much. i’m not saying that mint isn’t worth that. i’m saying i can’t see paying that. i’d like to do it for one site, but that leaves the others in the dust. so that really doesn’t help my overall issue. and talk of textstats is definitely exciting and hopeful, but not anywhere near the horizon. my point is, i want bbclone to work reliably. i’m not even sure any of this is bbclone’s fault! i don’t know what’s causing it! it’s like a hiccup in the php. and that seems to be server side.
i’m just about resigned to not keeping any stats whatsoever anymore and just not to care at all.
....after a few seconds of thought, i realize that this REALLY DOESN’T help. not all these sites are for me. Textpattern Resources needs a good stats app (it lost March and April, previously, which were unrecoverable, and i thought that was pretty bad…), and so do at least two others. Ferrydust can do without, cuz i’m the only one who cares. but …there’s just got to be a reasonable solution.
*update: i’m going to turn to StatCounter for now.
For whatever reason, I’m really quite surprised how much difference a fresh coat of paint makes.
I’ve had an RSS notice in my email box since this morning, informing me that there was an Announcement entitled ‘A Terrible Sadness’ to the Textpattern forum. But I didn’t read it until just now. I had no idea…
My reaction has been shock and sadness and sorrow and regret and confusion… I didn’t really know sivni. From my impression of him from the forum, I liked him, and we communicated for a little while regarding his start up of textgarden. But I had not read his homepage posts that very honestly and openly revealed his battles with depression and panic attacks. I didn’t know. I’m sorry and I’m sad. And there’s a whole lot of us who are sad right now and grieving for him.. let alone the people who actually met him and knew him and loved him. How can a person be so unhappy, to be willing to leave everyone else behind—and more than that; be willing to hurt them and deprive them of the person they care about. I can’t be mad at sivni. I didn’t know him well enough and I don’t know what he went through. I’m sorry I didn’t know, I’m sorry I didn’t …somehow make things better for him… better enough.. And I think about other friends and people I’ve known.. People I’ve known well enough. Either after the fact or even during.. I’ve been lucky. Of the people I’ve known and cared about who have seriously attempted suicide, they’ve all failed. For one reason or another, it didn’t happen. And I’m grateful and sad and angry and if they had succeeded… How could they? What would.. I just… Everyone deserves a chance.. Everyone who cares deserves a chance to know it’s that bad, and to try to fix it… to try to save their friend, whether selfishly or not. I don’t know. it doesn’t happen like that. I know it just doesn’t happen like that. I don’t know what I’m trying to say or convey. I’m really sad. I’m really sorry. For all of them. I hope Sivert was more happy than sad, when he could be, and I hope he’s at peace now.. ...
My parents have been looking for a new house.
This means their daughter, the now real estate agent, has been and will be plenty busy for a while yet.
Oy. Poor BBB. 
It’s been worse, though…
Am going to dedicated a couple of hours today on what will temporarily be called The Labor Day Project.
I am at this moment getting my maryland real estate salesperson’s license. I know I know. Like we need more real estate agents running around, right?
I have news. Ask me what it is. :)
today/yesterday’re poignant days. it’s both days really, not just the one. it’s good-poignant. i don’t want to talk about it yet. i just want to smile for a while.
::smiles::
List of things to do gets longer and longer.. even when if keeping p — and especially when not.
how do the next months play out? with hope, anticipation, attention, and adaptability.
side note: Textpattern 1.0 should be out this week?
London or Chincoteague?
Teaching, designing, stuff clearing, grocery shopping, house selling, trip planning, email writing, working, reading, writing, sleeping, eating, hugging, thinking, and all the other *ings
afterthought: Dad would remind me that breathing should clearly be up there on that list..
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