slated in
mused at 5:28 pm
and life is a choice, first and foremost.
(though also a responsibility and no man is an island and one should take responsibility for their influence—however minute/pathetic—in the universe/upon others)
So I’m not begrudging that.
But I was surprised because
life should not be a gamble.
Life should be amazing and beautiful and appreciated and valuable and meaningful for itself. Not a measly (in the scheme of things) stepping stone to get anywhere, no matter how grand.
Life has to mean more than that. Individuality, bodies, minds, feelings, art, senses.. they simply must mean more than that.
And if they don’t, then just how glorious can Glory be?
I thought I’d broken Ferrydust for a bit…
I think I’ve pinpointed the issue to the birthday post for Toby.. Was weird for a bit.
Anyway, yes, I have a hole in my foot. No, I’m not going to die. I don’t know if I’ve had my tetanus shot[recently]; if the doctor’s office never calls me back, I may never know.
Looks like a nice day out there, despite expected rain. i’d really like to make the Bond movie, but why is everything so busy and many things so messy lately?
Common thread is me/my time/space, neh?
Common threads.. important threads.. awareness, responsibility; choices, preferences, determination..
But I'm not trying to upset anyone either.
Alcohol spray. Nice.
Okay okay. I’m looking into whether or not I had the *&(@# tetanus shot in the last few months or not. I’m hoping someone remembers and tells me soon, because I can’t seem to get a live person on the phone from my doctor’s office right now..
Yee sang, Cherry Blossomness, Siyo Nqoba, Nonstop, onlyJ, salmon, ouch, beauty in the breakdown.
at 9:44 pm
Dear Logos,
daring, my love, I can’t take all your teasing.
Don’t work if you’re not going to work later!
Pick a symptom if you want to be broken and stay broken until I’ve figured out how to fix you (failing Rhaeg harddrive? grub boot issues? startup with no windows? non-responsive USB ports? confused power directions? overheating graphics card? I tells ya…)
OR — OR stay FIXED and happy and working all the time and we can interact in bliss and harmony for all time (or at least until technology jumps too far ahead for me to justify.. — sorry babe. ours is not a relationship of sustainable perpetuity and equality. But let’s at least ride this wave together as long as we can, neh? when the time comes, I promise to let you down as gently as possible. Just stop breaking my heart all the time meanwhile!!!)
Your creator, user, admin, playmate,
~Alicson
p.s. I’m glad to have you back. again. oy.
Happy 4th of July, and happy birthday Toby.
I broke Textpattern Resources site. o_O
Well, maybe. Either way, it’s definitley broken.
I’m sure it needs tables repaired but phpmyadmin won’t let me in because it’s angry about something I can’t fix cuz it won’t let me in.
Here’s hoping Filip or another superhero can rescue it soon..
*update at 10:37am: Okay. Apparently I did not break it. But in any case, Superhero Filip came to the rescue again, saving txp sites everywhere… :)
slated in
mused at 3:39 pm
True honesty and trust is not about simply not telling secrets and avoiding lies.
It’s about good judgment, personal responsibility, awareness and caring.
slated in
mood at 9:28 am
Ran into old Ferrydust journal entries. One month in particular..
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